House cleaning day

Today just happened one thing that make me damn pissed....
as my title...i'm having a house cleaning for today...
my sister and brother went out at the morning...
so i helped my father to clean the living room...
my friend ask me for badminton at 1.30pm...that time i'm still cleaning the balcony...
so after i cleaned the balcony i bathed and wanted to go out...
at the time i reach downstairs...my mother asked me where i wanted to go...
so i answered her played badminton with friends...
and my father started to yell at me...
he said "want clean the house then everyone's run away...never help to clean..."
then i go berserk....went back upstairs to clean the living room and abandoned the badminton....
i was damn dulan...wanted to yell back him and take the car's key drove to the court...
"what i never help...just now i'm not helping u???!!!"...and a lot of bad words came out from my mouth...he's always like this...said i never help him do things...
HELLO!!!! i always helped YOU carried those stupid good that YOU bring back...
and YOU said i never helped YOU???!!!! WTF!!!!
brother and sister were those who never helped YOU...why didn't YOU scold them....
FUCKER...make me damn emotional...
that time my sister already went back...so i was angry cleaning the stupid door at my balcony...i was damn pissed so i do things roughly...
i was suspect whether am i their child or not...because i never saw my baby's photo...but i saw my sister and brother's...
"i was born later than them...so if they had camera to capture sis and bro's photo...why didn't capture mine???"...so that's why i'm suspecting...it's totally different from the family i imagined...the family i imagined is very happy...very close to each other...will share their feelings together...but the family i'm in right now...totally ruined my fantasy about family...
i really thought a lot...and it's all negative...i was thinking about move out when college is transfer to beside TBS...so that i no need face them anymore...and i can learn independence...
damn emotional that time...cry a lot...no people to talk to about my sadness...>"<
yeah yeah...i know..."boy's crying??!!! that's so sissy!!!" so what...i do cry a lot...what can you do about that... call me sissy??? whatever you like...cause i'm not ashamed about it...and i'm proud of it...
YOU LOSER!!! (=_=)t